واسه هیچکی تو نقش نمیرم
شاید فک کنی بچگی کردم
من همینم عوض نمیشم
راه رفته رو برنمیگردم
زانوی غم بغل بگیرم ؟ نه
زندگیم شانسه خودمه
مگه دیکتس ازم غلط بگیرن؟

The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd: the longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible, nostalgia for what  never was, the desire for what could have been, regret over not being someone else, dissatisfaction with the world's existence. All these half-tones of the soul's consciousness create in us the painful landspace, an eternal sunset of what we are.
-Fernando Pessoa

These wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase"

شبیه به یک جورچینم. نه یک جورچین معمولی‌. آن جورچینی که هزار تکه اش گم شده باشد.

“And yet I still wake up tired, like … like something’s missing. I tried talking to friends, and maybe strangers, but nobody got it, so I stopped bringing it up, and then I just stopped talking to them altogether, because I couldn’t explain, and I was tired of pretending like everything was fine.
-a psalm for the wild-built

Hold me now, I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by

یه آهنگ‌هایی هستن که وقتی بعد از مدتها یهو پلی میشن، می‌مونی بخندی یا بغضت بگیره. انگار واقعا اون لحظه هیچ اطلاعی از وضعیت میمیکِ صورتت نداری. انگار که وسط یه جایی بین خلا و خلسه ولت کرده باشن. چون یه زمانی بهشون گوش دادی که الان دیگه هیچی مثل اون موقع ها نیست. یاد یه مکان هایی می افتی که خیلی وقته خراب شدن. و یاد آدم‌ هایی که یا گم شدن یا رهات کردن رفتن. آهنگ‌هایی که گاهی وقت‌ها شادن، گاهی وقت ها غمگین. اما تاثیری که روت می‌ذارن نه شادیه، نه غم. فقط یه بی حسی عجیب غریبه و ممتد.
-مون چایلد

Sorry me, I do believe I've failed you
Time again to show you what I know
Suddenly I feel the need to save you
So stay right here until it's time to go

Days go by and life goes on,
I feel I've been away too long
what I would give to be with you,
days go by and life drags on
feel I've been away too long,
for much too long, yeah