Feel and say.

Not always it's easy to say.
When it concerns you.
As it's easy to gossip about!
When it hurts us, is not the same

Doost.

We supported one another,
Stood firm, closely attached.

When you cried, I dried your tears,
When I raged, you soothed my pain.

Days turned to nights, filled with long talks.
Like two siblings, our lives intertwined.

We both grew older, no longer two teens.
Responsibilities now weigh on our precious time.

Though we meet less often, the bond remains forever.

Untrue.

Maybe only one heart felt the flame,
Not willing to cast blame and both let it go,
Or just me let it go from where you never were.
Appeals long cold, where once there was warmth.
A resounding hollow echo is all that remains.

Forgive my haste, the words that caused you strange.
Dimming your eyes' light when you saw my face,
Silence shouts the untold truth of you.
As strangers once, with innocence unbound,
Now, we both ghost pretending to be unknown.

Unspoken.

*The fragile bridge we built with shared meals,
Appeals long cold, the warmth it once concealed.
Now, silence hangs heavy, a weight on my heart.
A week of hallow halls echo where we used to start the day.
Once as friends we looked eye to eye, a stranger I see.

My rushed out words, the weight of truth, a heavy toll.
From stolen glances, and flicker hopes, I feel regret.
I regret having met you because once we were strangers,
Now, we pretend to be as distant as sole strangers.*

"Forgotten in the Rain"

When celestial blue takes to the sky, casting shadows on the earth below,
While children play in the park, flimsy leaves produce a sudden spark,
During summer's rainy days, beneath an umbrella, the dry space grows narrow.

The sadness of the crowd, bodies walking errantly, as the days wane away,
The loneliness of those whose names are not on the list of saints, as they silently pray,
Some might think they're done, but the truth is not for them; they were forgotten.

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The Urge.

I promise not to do this,
Soon, I do it eagerly again.
After I ponder I should resist,
Resist is the least I put effort into.
I know I cannot undo what's done.
The desires of my heart are gone.
Now I am more prone to it.

Break
Everyone needs a break sometimes.
To become stronger see in right away.
Take some time to relax and come back with more energy.
Remember, taking breathing
It shows that you are brave and willing to make yourself better.
You can handle anything that comes your way with a refreshed mind.

Not expecting.

I feel like things I am not expecting,
Happens more often than I expect.

1982.*Back when we were younger, back in 1982
days on the ranch had a yellow feeling,
Sunny days were fast. Baseball bat on grass.
As the second hand of the clock lightly moved.

Songs sang while the old orange sun sank,
Behind the countryside cliffs, evergreen.
Quince's smell was as fresh as the breeze.
In the thin eyebrows of a child from those days.

Under the apple tree, where shadows dance,
Whispers of the home radio, a fleeting trance.
Getting darker, Cicadas hum the tunes of yore.
At the distance, Lionel Richie sings Endless Love,

Jamie fell to the ground, with bruised hands,
Thence, we got older for non-stopping time.*