50 days of Summer (1stJun-21stJul)

"завтрак"ga

http://press.natlib.uz/ru/publications/pravda-vostoka?range=1990

"Правда Востока" gazetasi SSSR davrida, O'zbekistonliklar uchun yagona axbarot yetkazish manbasi bo'lgan. Huddi hozirgi "O'zbekiston24" yoki "Kun.uz" kabi. Bizlar uchun ham haqiqiy yaqin tariximizni bilish uchun birdan-bir qo'llanma.
Biroq, ushbu sayt-arxiv, menga "1984"dagi bosh qahramon Smit qiladigan ishni, ya'ni o'tmishning ba'zi sahifalarini yo'qotish sahnasini eslatdi. 1937-1938, 1953-yil mart oyi, 1945-yil birinchi olti oylik haqida ba'zi ma'lumotlarni fact-checking qilish uchun bu yerdan foydalanmoqlik uchun kirsam, ne ko'z bilan ko'rayki, ushbu tanho hisoblanadigan "yozma manbada"da, bu sanalarga aloqador gazetlar yo'q.
Kimdir aytganidek, "Tarixni g'oliblar yozadi". Tarix fani o'ta provokatsionligi va juda ko'p o'zgarishlarga yuz tutganligi bilan ajralib turadi. Meni Oruellning ushbu fikriga qo'shilishdan boshqa ilojim yo'q: "Kimki, o'tmishni nazorat qilsa, u kelajakni boshqaradi; kim hozirni nazorat qila olsa, u o'tmishni boshqaradi".

O'sha kuni, seni uchratib qolganimdan
Keyin ma'budam,
Huddi o'sha vaqtda yana seni
Ko'rmoq uchun,
O'sha yo'lda hozir bo'lmoqni
Qilgandim reja.
Eslatmalar bilan to'ldirgandim xonamni,
"Budulnik"ni tayin qilib qo'ygan edim
Biror ehtimolga, qarshi bo'lar deb.
Bir soat qolganda,
Oshxonadan suv toshib ketdi,
Jin ursin derdim-u, dastimdan qolmadi,
Urilmagan jin!
Buzmoq kerak, tuzatmoq uchun,
Tuzatmoqlik, buzmoqdan mushkul
Davom etdi bu marosim,
Uzoooq muddat.
Xullas, seni ko'rolmadim.
Kelgusi kun uchun tuzdim men reja.
Kelgusi kun, do'l yog'di,
Do'lda chiqmasang kerak,
Chaqmoq chaqdi,
Zevs, seni men ko'rmagan kun,
Uchratib qolgan shekilli.
Qaydam.
Olimpda janjal bo'lgan ko'rinadi...
Uchinchi kun ko'rsam kerak,
Garov bog'ladim qismat bilan,
Reja tuzmoq uchun qolmadi umid.
Bu bahsda yutmoqlik
Qayerda deysan,
Iqbolim menimcha,
Tug'ilgan o'lik.
Ustiga-ustak,
Hojatxona unitazi buzildi, uchinchi kuni.
Yana ustalar keldi,
Uy to'zidi...
Derazadan qarab qo'yar edim,
Ahyon-ahyonda,
Quyosh botdi, kelar vaqting bo'lgandi o'tib.
Kechroq orzularim bilan birga,
Unitazni axlatxonaga tashlab keldim,
Mushuklar tarvaqay qochishdi, shovqindan;
Taqdirni aybladim,
Taqdir o'zi bormikan,
Nima deb o'ylaysan?
Ko'rishib qolsak, albat senga
Bu savolni berib ko'raman.
O'sha payt, meni axmoqqa chiqarmasang bas.
Taqdir haqidagi, istalgan o'y,
Iymonga shubha tushiradi,
Yarador iymonim iringlab ketdi.
Hech nimani ayblay olmaslik azobi,
Tomirlarim uzra bormoqda suzib...
Playlist'imdan, o'sha qo'shiqni qidiraman:
"Sen hatto ismimni bilmaysan,
Ko'nglimni qayerdan bilarding",
Sigaretani yondirish uchun yoqilgan,
Uchta gugurt cho'pni o'chirdi shamol,
To'rtinchisi yoqdi; tutadi sigor.
Absurd hikmat izladim bundan,
Demak, uchraturman, ilohamni
To'rtinchi kuni...

Salmoqiddin

Honey, let's dance...

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"...I was thinking too much about how I didn't want you to go...I didn't want to kiss you goodbye - that was the trouble - I wanted to kiss you good night - and there's a lot of difference."
(c) Ernest Hemingway

"I don't think I'm easy to talk about. I've got a very irregular head. And I'm not anything that you think I am anyway".
(c) Syd Barrett

"Nature is stupid, my brothers; and as far as we are nature, we are all stupid." Stupidity also has a nice name: it is called necessity. "
(c)Friedrich Nietzsche

Chaos was the law of nature; Order was the dream of man.
(c)Henry Adams

I have an idea that the only thing which makes it possible to regard this world we live in without disgust is the beauty which now and then men create out of the chaos. The pictures they paint, the music they compose, the books they write, and the lives they lead. Of all these the richest in beauty is the beautiful life. That is the perfect work of art.
(c)W. Somerset Maugham

All the most powerful emotions come from chaos - fear, anger, love
- especially love. Love is chaos itself. Think about it! Love makes no sense. It shakes you up and spins you around. And then, eventually , it falls apart.
(c)Kirsten Miller

I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear; nor did I wish to practise resignation, unless it was quite necessary. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan-like as to put to rout all that was not life, to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms...
(c)Henry David Thoreau

Existence is a fleeting illusion.”
(c)Gaspar Noé