Bismillah!

Ispaniyada maktab kechadan boshlandi. 1-kun bo'lsa ham Montessori muhitini his qildim deb ayta olaman. Nazariyani amaliyotda koʻrishdan ham kattaroq xursandchilik bo'lmasa kerak. Roppa-rosa 3 yil oldin shu kunlarda Montessorini kitoblardan, videolardan ko'rib, so'lagim oqib o'tirardim.
Tilimda bir kun men ham shu yo'nalishda o'qiyman, bolalar bilan shunday muhitda ishlayman deb yurgan bo'lsam ham, ongimda bunga ishonolmaganman. Lekin Al-Mujiyb hayolotni
reallikka aylantiradi. Bugun mana bolalar bilan o'sha muhitda o' zim bo'ldim, alhamdulillah!

Montessori aytganidek, biz bolalar xizmatkorimiz (we serve children), haqiqiy va
aniq ma'nosida. Xuddi stuardessalardek desayam boʻladi.
Farqimiz esa biz bilan kuchli, qiziqarli shaxsiyatlar shakllanadi.
Vazifamizni uddalay olsak, murgʻak qalblarning butun umrlik qahramoniga aylana olamiz, hayot hikoyalarida o'rnimiz bo'ladi.
Aksi boʻIsa hech kimga sezilmagan holda bolaning shaxsiyati sekin-sekin yemiriladi. Qanchalik mas'uliyatli. Va qiyin ham.
Ayniqsa kishi ruhan yetuk, hislarini tushuna oladigan, nazorat qila oladigan bo'Imasa. Oʻzi bilan, shaxsiyatidagi tarakanlar bilan, travmalari bilan tanish boʻlmasa, xuddi reabilitatsiya markazida yotgandek ruhiy qiyinchiliklar boʻladi. Har kuni qaysidir ruhiy qiyin ishni mamnuniyat bilan qilishga toʻgʻri keladi. Masalan, menga muhitda, oʻrganish jarayonida tartib, mental tartib oʻrnatish juda qiyin. Ayniqsa DYVG (Diqqat yetishmasligi va giperaktivlik) uzoq yillik hamrohim boʻlsa. Lekin Montessori falsafasida tartibning har qanday turi asosiy rolni egallaydi. Bola rivojlanib borar ekan, uning tartibning turli koʻrinishiga ehtiyoji katta boʻladi. Avval muhitda tartib, keyin aqlida tartib — bu ikkalasi qoʻshilib bola shaxsiyatida ruhiy tartibni ta’minlaydi. Keyingi bosqichlarda emotsional va diniy-ruhoniy tartib. Hozir men bolalar bilan ishlaydigan bosqichda eng asosiy urgʻu aqliy va axloqiy tartibga qaratiladi. Aqliy tartibga boʻlgan ehtiyojini qondirish uchun Kosmik ta’lim beriladi. Axloqiy ehtiyojini esa har kuni sinfxonadagi katta insonlardan (bizdan) va aqliy koʻnikmalarini ishlatib sekin-sekin atrofdagi boshqa odamlardan, ayniqsa tarixiy shaxslardan oʻrganib, bajarib koʻrib, qondiradi. Mening vazifam bolaga shunday tartibli, sistematik muhit yaratib berish. Nafaqat jismoniy sinfxona, balki miyasida ham tartibni shakllantirib borish.

Buning uchun esa men oʻzim qaytadan 6-12 yosh yillarimni yashashni boshladim. Har kuni qiynalaman, lekin har safar buni “Kamchiliklarimni Robbim menga shunday oson, muhabbatli muhitda toʻgʻrilashimni xohlabdi. Alhamdulillah!” ,- deb qabul qilaman. Sababi oʻzim ham xohlayman har qanday ilm va bilim tartibli saqlanishini, hislarimda rang-baranglik bilan birga tartib ham boʻlishini, kamida qachon xaos, qachon tartibda ekanimni bilib, sezib turishni istayman.

Alloh oson qilsin va baraka bersin!

@globalstudentt

Endi tezlashdi. Qizchalar bilan shaharchani aylanib kelmoqchi edim. Ular kiyinib, tayyor boʻlguncha rejalar ham oʻzgarishga majbur boʻldi: yomgʻir sabab albatta.

Instagramda bu oʻxshatishni ishlatgandim: yomgʻirning birdaniga tezlashib ketishini oʻz qaygʻusini gʻazab orqali emas, yigʻi orqali chiqarishi mumkinligini birinchi marta anglagan, his qilgan erkak koʻz yoshiga oʻxshatgandim. Yillab yigʻilgan yaralar ogʻrigʻini koʻz yoshlar bilan chiqarish yengilligi ham aynan yomgʻirdan keyin chiqadigan qizgʻaldoqdek sof, yorqin, tiniq va goʻzal boʻladi. Qalb shaffoflashadi. Tabiatiga qaytganini his qilgani uchun.

@globalstudentt

#aboutmyprofessionalstate Here is another archive about the living and the small... When something "big" happens, it is very difficult to do something "small". And sometimes it is the only thing you can do. I still believe in psychotherapy. But at such…

#aboutmyprofessionalstate

Here is another archive about the living and the small...

When something "big" happens, it is very difficult to do something "small".

And sometimes it is the only thing you can do.

I still believe in psychotherapy. But at such moments it seems like nothing, just words... Can they have any effect, change anything?..

"Small" is like offering condolences to a person who has lost a loved one. You speak and feel: it is just "nothing" compared to his loss...

"Small" is the feeling from working with a child whose parents are unable to change the dysfunctionality of their relationship. And stopping therapy when your words began to turn into something meaningful for this child...

"Small" is the presence next to the pain of the one who is sitting opposite in the chair. When you want to scream from what you hear:
- The world is terribly unfair.
But you sit, listen and try to find words that will not seem completely insignificant compared to this pain...

In all these situations, you want to do something. To cope with your affection and empathy, fear and anger. To feel a little less helpless...

It is easier when you can give money or provide other material tangible help. In therapy, we do not have even this. All that remains is to listen, sometimes talk, breathe nearby, live, be present, comprehend... Despair that this does not help. Then notice small changes - rejoice. Then despair again...

Still, in my opinion, psychotherapy is not a narcissistic activity.

Sometimes they say that the therapist is the most important person in the client's life. But it seems to me that this is an attempt to get by with how "small" we are.

The desire to be an ideal, correct therapist is also such an attempt.
It seems that if you become better, there will be less suffering in general.
It used to seem that way...

Now it's obvious: life offers many options for suffering. It can't be avoided. Only one thing justifies it - love. Without love, all this would be meaningless and absolutely worthless.

We are terribly imperfect and will not become much better.

But it is very important if you can feel "alive"...
To feel the beating of the heart, strength, fatigue, hatred, kindness, to joke stupidly and laugh at your own jokes, to doubt, not know, make mistakes, love, in general, a lot of all this...
It's really cool.

And it is also very healing to be near a "living" person...

(c) Yevgeniya Andreeva

@globalstudentt

Aytgancha har bir ota-onaning Montessorichiga aylanishi birdaniga bo'lmaydigan, Gid bilan birga yuriladigan yo'l. Men Latviyadan ketayotganimda ota-onalarning har biri men bilan juda iliq xayrlashishdi. Men ulardan ular mendan rozi bo'lib qolishdi. Juda ko'pi transformatsiya qilib Montessorichiga aylanishdi.

"Erim ochiq fikrli, o‘qish, izlanishni qattiq sevadigan inson edi. Universitetda bir guruhda o‘qirdik, Ali Shariatiy o‘y-fikr, tafakkurda men va butun guruhdagilardan old saviyada edi. U ta'limga alohida ahamiyat berardi. Parijga borganimizda o‘g‘limiz Ihsan…