Odamlarday yashamoq kerak,
Chetda turib yonmoq besamar...
Ko'p qatori mana meni ham
Yugurishga o'rgatdi shahar.

Telefonlar jiringlar shitob,
Yuguradi qog'ozda qalam.
Lahza – so'roq, daqiqa – xitob...
Qo'zg'alaman sapchib o'rnimdan!

Men hansirab chopaman olg'a,
Ufqlardan nenidir kutib.
Bu dunyoda dala, tog', daryo,
Bog' borligin qo'ydim unutib.!

Atrofimda olam aylanar,
Go'yo umrim borar yorishib.
Xiyobonlar, haykallar, gullar
Bir - biriga ketar qorishib.

Chaqmoq!.. Senga nigohim tushar...
To'xtamoqlik? Mumkinmas! Aslo!
Yuguraman! Vujudim uchar...
Men sezgayman qolganim tanho.

Zirqiraydi nogoh yuragim,
To'qnashadi osmon bilan yer.
Qayga borib, qayga ketmayin
"Keldim" deya aytolmaydi Dil.

Yuguraman – ming xil xayolim,
Yuguraman – qayga bilmadim!
Termilishib ortimdan g'amgin
Qalbim kuydi, o'zim bilmadm..

Yuguraman shamol bilan teng...
Qayerlarga, qachon yetaman?
Qaynab yotgan ko'chalarga men
O'zimni ham tashlab ketaman.

I'm stuck between "Everything!" and "Nothing!"

#otziv
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December isn't Decembering like other Decembers Decembered.

I need a Holiday. ASAP

It must pay off. Mustttt

Qudratingga yarashasini so‘rayveraman, Sen qurbimga yarashasini ber.

Sometimes, I don’t even know what to ask for. I stand at the edge of my own thoughts, not knowing what I need, where to go, or even how to name the weight in my chest. It’s not sadness, nor is it peace—it’s just nothing.

If you can feel something—anything at all—be grateful. Call it anger, call it stress, call it joy, call it heartbreak. But don’t you dare call it emptiness. You have no idea how heavy emptiness can be. It’s not a burden that sits on your shoulders; it’s the void within you that refuses to be filled, no matter how much you pour in.

And here I am searching for something I cannot define. Is it something I never had, or something I had Lost?

This unfulfilled part of me—it aches, though I cannot pinpoint where. What am I searching for? What am I mourning?

Perhaps it’s everything.
Perhaps it’s nothing.

Or perhaps, the real tragedy is not knowing the difference.

Kasalik qog'ozlari..

Imkon darajangizdan kelib chiqib qilgan har bir ehsoningiz ahamiyatli.

Hayot faqat o'qishdan iborat emas lekin qo'lingizdan shu ham kelmasa nimani eplay olasiz?!!❗️