I went to a gothic techno the other day.

All black outfit. No circles. Everyone is single. No one is talking. No one is smiling. Everyone is just vibing to the music. And it was one of the best dj performances ever.

This is exactly how I imagined my experience in Germany would be.

nobody can save you but
yourself.
you will be put again and again
into nearly impossible
situations.
they will attempt again and again
through subterfuge, guise and
force
to make you submit, quit and/or die quietly
inside.

nobody can save you but
yourself
and it will be easy enough to fail
so very easily
but don’t, don’t, don’t.
just watch them.
listen to them.
do you want to be like that?
a faceless, mindless, heartless
being?
do you want to experience
death before death?

nobody can save you but
yourself
and you’re worth saving.
it’s a war not easily won
but if anything is worth winning then
this is it.

think about it.
think about saving your self.
your spiritual self.
your gut self.
your singing magical self and
your beautiful self.
save it.
don’t join the dead-in-spirit.

maintain your self
with humor and grace
and finally
if necessary
wager your self as you struggle,
damn the odds, damn
the price.

only you can save your
self.

do it! do it!

then you’ll know exactly what
I am talking about.

“nobody but you” by Charles Bukowski from Sifting Through the Madness for the Word, the Line, the Way, 2002

So yeah, let's imagine that the absolute truth consists in finding out whether an infinitely big number -- say, 848372772737372727377382827373728828384828... is a prime number or not.

How do you go about it? Let's imagine that the number of digits of this exemplary number is infinite. Because, why not? Numbers can be infinitely big, right?

So in this case, no matter how strong your computational power is -- you will and can never reach the infinity, and thus you can never be sure if your imaginary number is prime or not. Do you understand?

So, the quest for truth is the one that never ends. You can never be sure.

Baby, I'm wasted.

Have you studied mathematics before? If yes, then try to follow the logic of mathematics.

For example, you are investigating whether a very big number -- let's say 10337737372828388293746381027 -- is a prime number or not.

How do you go about it? Try to remember your high school years; even if there's only one number that is greater than one which can be multiplied by another prime number, and at the end of which you get the given number is considered as not prime. You see? It's enough to just have a single number out of all possible numbers that can be divided into any other number, and your infinitely big number is proven to be wrong.

That's it. It's as brutal as it gets. Let's say you get all the way to 1727367382838 and you don't find any number that can divide the given number (given in the beginning of the previous paragraph) into a natural number. But what if the very next number turns out to be the prime number that can divide the given number without residue? Well, it means that you are wrong. It doesn't matter if you found a billion cases of indivisibility of the given number: it takes only one number to come up that can be a divisor of the given number and all your calculations turn out to be wrong.

Because for a statement to be true, you will have to consider all possibilities. And having only one single exception means that your "theory"/exception is irrelevant.

Thus, the same reasoning applies here. Do not try to justify your beliefs. In fact, try to question them as much as you can. If your belief is strong enough, then you can note them as an absolute truth. But you will see that it's not going to be the case. You will see that there's nothing permanent/robust in reasoning. You can never be sure of anything. Because you are going to realize that you are dealing with infinity, and in infinity, you can never be sure of anything.