MERRY CHRISTMAS YOU GUYS! 🎄🤶🎁🍪🥛 may your Christmas be full of love, gratitude and joy this year as we celebrate the birth of the wonderful Jesus Christ 🤍🤍

I have a mini tiktok account and instagram account for my journalling too that I recently started if you wanna support 🦕

insta: https://www.instagram.com/lilacdinos/profilecard/?igsh=MTE1eDJteTN5NTJubQ==

tiktok:
https://www.tiktok.com/@lilacdinos?_t=8sRuvKTRIbQ&_r=1

I'm gonna let you guys in on a little secret (or maybe not so secret tbh): when I get overwhelmed or overstimulated because it's too much to handle, I go silent for a few minutes and ask to be left alone for a bit in the most respectful way i can. and once i feel like I'm able to handle and compartmentalise my emotions, I go back to doing my own life.

i feel that it's a much better way of dealing with my emotions in a healthy way rather than to suck it up, have a bad temper and completely explode. remember that you HAVE limits and you need to respect them as a human! if you can't push yourself, don't!

I genuinely love all my friends so much, new and old.

ok thought of the day:

sometimes you're not actually that sad and life isn't that bad sometimes you just need to talk to people and spend time with them!!!!! 😁😁😁

i genuinely cannot take it that my entire room and my life is in a mess rn so! im going to embark on what I call the massive cheyenne clean up project 😋😋😋😋

day 1 -> clean up my study materials/textbooks + stuff toy couch
day 2 -> clean up my journalling, sewing and jewelry cabinets
day 3 -> clean up my desk areas and cabinets
day 4 -> clean up my cupboard and my phone.... because my phone's storage is 254.6GB/256GB... yikes.

and here are some other things I'm planning to do before the year ends!

1. ive decided ill embark on two solo dates! one on the 23rd, and one (tentaitvely) on the 30th :) thank ypu to everyone who gave advice on how to spend time alone without the fear of other people 🤍

2. decorating my 2025 journals, notebooks etc and setting up a system and morning routine so that I don't continue my bum lifestyle in 2025 LAWLLL

3. apply for some internship opportunities + volunteering events + search up some uni courses! though I have a vague idea I defooo still would like to discover my possible alternatives

4. re-activate and re-alive my jounralling account that has been dead for who knows how long LOLLL

5. im most excited for this.... filming singing covers again 🥹🥹🥹 ive missed singing smm heheh

so yup that's my remainder of 2024 and some plans for 2025!!! we have 13 more days, slightly less than a week, to 2025 so let's make the most of it before we start off fresh into a new year 😋😋😋

today's thoughts is that social media is one hell of a drug!!! peer pressure and peer comparison is such a real issue i fear i fall victim to it every day 😹😹😹 sometimes it's best to just say "damn" and scroll :)

on a more serious note though, I think it's worth remembering that we compare because we feel insecure. we are most vulnerable when we are alone and no one else notices. our thoughts are loudest when we only have a single POV and are blinded by what is shown on the screen, and not what happens in the reality of it. social media distorts our sense of reality and when it does, it absolutely crushes it. it's worth remembering that sometimes we have to fall back not on what these silly apps make life seem, but to be the ones experiencing it for ourselves! the truth is clearest when you experience life for yourself and not through the perceived lens of others!!!

one thing I've learnt this year that has been quite different from previous years:

happiness exist in small, intimate moments!!! it really is about quality over quantity. you don't need many friends, you just need the right ones.

even if I don't have many friends outside my class, that's okay! because i love the people in my class with my whole heart and I wouldn't trade it for ANYTHING in the world ☹️❤️

happy December!! 🤍🤍🤍

also. i cannot stop listening to i love you, I'm sorry by gracie abrams.