I feel so sad when someone says they compare themselves to me ☹️☹️☹️ because I can't even see the good traits in myself sometimes! it tears me apart when people can't acknowledge their own potential, but the very truth is we are so blinded by other people's potential, capabilities, abilities, it sometimes unconsciously blinds us, and we lose confidence and hope in the beauty that lies within us. we are all a work in progress. we are all seedlings that require love to grow!!! and who else will nurture that love but us!!!!

I guess that's why people always say that for others to love us, we need to learn to love ourselves first. because when we can't love ourselves enough, we depend so heavily on others for their love to compensate for the lack of it on our end. and then when it feels insufficient, WE feel inadequate, and no amount of love is enough. once we are able to supplement ourself with the self love we need, that's when the love from others becomes more of a support, a secondary source of happiness, and a foundation that isn't a necessity for us to function.

a reminder to appreciate your talents too! other people see so much good in you, even if it's a silent admiration, and it happens much more often than you think! don't ever let your light diminish ??

one way id describe the feeling of graduating and the teachers providing us with all their advice, resources, materials as we head into exams, it's kind of like when you're packing your luggage at home for the last time and your parents are making sure you have everything before the long drive to the destination. you're not quite at the gates of departure yet, but suddenly everything feels a little too real, and you get hit with the realisation that what was once a countdown to a day that only existed in your imagination, is suddenly reality. and it's not yet goodbye, but you can feel it creeping up on you. that bittersweet feeling of change, as you are desperately holding in tears and overwhelmed emotions that you can't bear to face just yet, but you feel it piling up and you can't help but accept that this is happening, and this is life.

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the moon is sososo pretty im always frustrated when i can't ever capture a nice picture of the moon, sooo happy to finally have a camera to capture the small little details that perfectly encapsulates the beauty of a moon hehehe

anyway thought day:

i genuinely don't believe in forgiving someone as soon as you can. maybe im not like maximisjng my optimism or something and that's okay! i think im more of a realistic person if anything.... but to me i think it takes time to forgive, and takes even longer to forget. ill never have be as trusting or as kind as people who can forgive immediately and i indeed, DO hold grudges lmao. but to me I think there's always a certain level of validity we need to give to our emotions.

when I talk about taking time to forgive, it's not really about "ok i wanna prove to you i'm mad at you" but it's really giving myself time and space to sort out my feelings and to rationalise why im upset, the situation and why im reacting a certain way. if i were to forgive easily honestly it would lead to so much unresolved feelings which would only translate to further tensions and unhappiness that ill bottle up, and that's the last thing i want to do. i think being hurt and feeling hurt is more than fine, and it's more than okay. when someone unintentionally inflicts "pain" onto you which causes you to feel discomfort, unhappiness, uneasiness, it's a really big emotion to have to deal with, and to a certain extent trust has been broken off that took time to build. so of course when such a sudden change or shock has been caused, we can't magically rebuild it right!!! as humans the beauty is that eventually we learn to forgive, but taking time to forgive is actually and personally i view it, as a way to validate ourselves, stand up for ourselves, and to take care of ourselves when we get hurt. holding grudges sometimes or not wanting to interact with someone who hurt you originally is fine too! because you need to get into the right state of mind before approaching the situation again, unless you want to deal more harm to the relationship/friendship, and it's not easy to face someone who might have made you feel small or little when you least expect them to. it's a natural way of your body reacting to it's surroundings, needing to adapt, and having to sort out emotional stress that's been inflicted when something goes wrong.

tdlr don't feel pressured to need to be a peacemaker and resolve situations immediately. take your time to forgive, and to let wounds heal. take your time to truly mean the words "it's okay i forgive you". sometimes it's only when we truly, and genuinely forgive someone, can we rebuild an even stronger bond with them, and continue the friendship/relationship without feeling as though there is unresolved tensions. you do not have to rush your feelings, and never discount the process of you healing!!! go at your own pace, at your own time, people are much much more understanding than you think ❤️‍?

they showed this video too yesterday and i bawled.

thought for today!

think the highlight of the camp that impacted me the most (in a sense where it shaped my perspectives and was the most pure moment) was really the trip to MINDS. if you don't know already MINDS is the leading organisation in Singapore working together with students and adults with intellectual disabilities and autism. ystd we went to visit the clients at the childcare centre and dude my heart actually melted. one thing I really really really find so genuine and pure is how happy they look and seem. there was this girl who immediately grabbed my hands and gave me a hug, and was holding my hands the entire time, and another girl who unfortunately didn't have the right vocabulary to explain to me what her favourite song was, started singing to me.

I think honestly it's so beautiful and special to be able to communicate with humans in other ways that are non verbal, giving affection in ways that doesn't necessarily have to involve words, and just being present. being there. one of the things the MINDS instructor actually mentioned is that they don't have much exposure and interaction with the outside world, so our presence really brightens up their days and I appreciate that sososos much because we don't often realise how privilege we are to be surrounded by so many people and have the opportunity to interact with a wider community, when people like the clients at MINDS have certain limitations and restrictions unfortunately because they were born with such a impediment. nonetheless it was really heartwarming to spend time with them because a lot of them are so joyous and happy and optimistic all the time, and it's such a precious sight to see. I really really encourage those who might have some time on your hands, to spare a day or two volunteering at MINDS because I think it really shapes your perspectives and viewpoints.

know I said I deleted tele for awhile but ? I HAVE TOO MANY THOUGHTS TO SHARE yay ill share w everyone bit by bit this week cos i feel that there's some things that's very value adding and worth sharing too :")

anyways! i was just telling some friends that social media is so fake. today i just posted a picture on my main account but in reality there was a whole meltdown before this LOL

ive had sensitive skin + eczema all my life and when it's ?season my outbreaks are CRAZYYY. so this morning it looked all disgusting and gross and i lowkey was like tearing abit because it's so frustrating that i can't just have normal glowy skin like everyone else. it's such a real struggle tbh LOL i feel like we don't talk about it a lot because sometimes we get so embarrassed to mention it sometimes or we just don't exactly know how to talk about it at times.

i think sometimes we forget we have natural flaws!!! flaws that we cannot control, flaws way beyond our reach. sometimes i like to think of them as beauty marks LOL as weird as it sounds, i feel like my healed pimples/acne lowkey add abit more life(???) to my face? or perhaps it serves as a reminder of all the times i felt extremely insecure but yet manage to make it through each day without overly
beating myself up about it and trusting the process

sometimes it's not about having to meet beauty standards, or achieving a beauty standard of yourself that has to meet societal norms and expectations, but about being comfortable and content in our own skin, and accepting the love we think we deserve. it's about learning not to let these flaws diminish your self worth, value, confidence! honestly sometimes the people who hyperfixate on these flaws the most, is in fact, us. we just think people judge a LOTTTTT more than they actually do. be kind to yourself and be patient even if you may not yet be comfortable with how you look and who you are. ill be honest and say, im still in the process of accepting my looks but we will get there eventually! ??