I check after sending a message,
Did it get seen, I wonder,
And if seen, has a reply arrived?
In the wait, hours pass by,
Staring at my phone aimlessly,
After your silence,
I feel myself falter once more,
Holding onto false hope,
As if pleading prayers to a stone.**

Tears aren't merely water,
They're an ocean of emotions.
In joy and in sorrow,
They flow, unbidden.
But if they cease to fall,
Know that the heart is lifeless,
A soul gone silent.**

A flower that you plucked,
Its beauty was its curse,
There were other flowers too,
But they escaped such a fate.
Was it its hue or scent,
That lured you close,
Other flowers kept blooming,
But that one, forever was lost.

*If only it were easy to bear~
My heart's yearning for you,

I would have done so~
at the very moment~
When our eyes first met,

But instead, 
I remained in hopeful anticipation.
Living in reality, 
but in the dreams of our love.

My unspoken affection flowed silently.
Like a river's gentle current,
Growing steadily, 
yet restrained by the walls of patience,

But when those walls finally crumbled,
It seemed that time ~
had slipped away beyond my grasp.

To reject my love in such a manner,
Doesn't it seem unjust?
given the depth of my feelings?

Even after your departure,
I couldn't bid you a proper farewell.
Being with you was always just out of reach.

My emotions and feelings 
That has been inside for a long 
Like a silent symphony,
Emotions of mine play this tune,
unheard by the world,
yet resonating deep within.

But perhaps today, 
I can find the courage to say goodbye.
To you, and to the love that remains unfinished within me.*

Falling ill brought clarity,
Every truth came into focus.
Yesterday's mistakes became today's sins,
I began to understand my own anger.
The ticking of the clock echoed in my ears,
As if saying there's still a chance.
My breath still flows,
Whatever you do, however much you do,
Do it, but do it with passion and emotions.

I'm sorry for not being active. I'm sick, but I'll be back as soon as I recover.