??? : for jaehyun and jayden .

00.00 ily jayden

00.00 ily jayden

Is it painful being alone? Does it make us happy to be alone? If you are asked such a question then what will you answer? If I was, I'd answer both. You know, why both, why not just pick one? Okay, let me explain to you guys. How is it that being alone makes us happy? Because maybe at that time it just feels like we need to be alone. Don’t want any outside intervention, so when alone is more pleasant. Besides, meditation is for example. When we're feeling ourselves, if there's any noise, everything will be destroyed. Our concentration will be split, the moment we should be entering into ourselves. When we are willing to try to hear what is in our heart, will review every aspect of what has happened. Then the feeling itself is not a scary or hurtful thing. But it becomes something that we need.

Then how about being alone but painful. You know how it is on your own, but what a painful thing it looks like. That's when we need help. It takes a friend to lean on, talk tells stories. But they were gone as if. Then that is its definition of painful. When someone easily comes to you for help, but when we ask them for help, they're gone. Lost the trail. Missing lives. Not wanting to repay or give back willingly, but if one is human, then he will understand. Understand how to treat, mingle with other humans. And another example you must have felt, or seen many others. But it's okay, being alone is not a sign of not wanting to be social. For example, a timid person can interact with others even with very few people.

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ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤSpeaking of being alone, I'm sure everyone's ever felt alone in their lives. And I'm sure that even if there are people around them or friends, they must feel alone. Then someone once said to me, "what do you take me for? I am right here. You don't think I'm your friend?" Well, that's not what I'm talking about. I know that you are around me, I know that you will always support me. But sometimes this feeling of "alone" comes when I can't express what I'm feeling. As I truly feel, that I bear all alone. And at that moment I completely forgot all the words, sentences, phrases. As if my tongue was unable to tell, my fingers froze unable to type, my eyes always waste so many tears, my brain seemed to fail immediately. It all happened, when I needed hope. Hope that makes me come back inside myself. The hope that brings me to a fairy-tale land filled with prosperity, happiness, and purity.

I've felt things that I never really wanted to experience. Not that I didn't appreciate them, but there was a certain amount of anxiety that convinced me that I was alone at the time. Am I bad? Am I being selfish? That's up to what you'll say. But feelings like that always haunted me, not because I was lacking friends. I'm grateful to have friends like them right now. What scares me is that I lose part of everything inside of me. Just for the one thing, I've been through, but I'm having a hard time going through it a second time. Even I feel my feelings because I'm really confused. I don't know what to tell you about that. I'm confused as to how I'm putting it all together, so you can understand what I'm saying. But I on the one hand couldn't force my brain to keep going. And I'm confused about how I'm supposed to deal with this sadness where I always shed tears without asking.