The world is full of obvious things which nobody by any chance ever observes

Tiredofbeingtheblacksheepofthefamilyijustwanttobelovedandcaredforinallthewaysineverwasasachildiamsickandtiredofhandlingresponsibiltiesthatarewaybeyondmeijustwanttobeachild

Y'all texting me to fuck and I'm trying not to kill myself please

God loves you so much that he created hell just in case you don't love him back

My favourite thing about getting high is how food gets tastier

My body feels too heavy to move

I'm just tired abeg

if wishes were penises, nuns would ride?

But what am I even saying, I wouldn't like being a stone any more than I like being human but at least, for a while, lemme just sleep and dream and not wake up till I'm tired of not waking up.

But life doesn't work that way now does it? If wishes were horses, beggars would ride...

I tell my boyfriend all the time; I just want to be still. Very still and stagnant. Like a statue. I want to be still like a statue because living has become so tasking, so tiring, so... treacherous and I want no more of it. Being reminded with every breath that I still exist by own will is such a burden because why do I have to be the one responsible for my life when I am not my own creator? Constantly putting in effort to have a will to live is so much stress and ion like stress. I don't want to have to breathe, to take in air and bring back out. So stressful because now my chest is going up, I can feel it constrict and release inside me and it's so annoying. The whole process of thinking through the process is stressful as well. Why do I have to think? Why do I have to be in a constant state of musing? Of imagining of wondering? Why my brain always so active, and interactive? So much stress. And eating, I have to make the food, clean up and after, and feed myself and chew and swallow and digest! What the hell!!! So much work. I'm tired of life honestly. I just want to turn to stone