everytime i get angry, i get reminded that i am my mother's daughter

i want to be more accepting
i dont want my mind to be meaner as i get older
i want it to be softer and kinder and more loving with each day i live

eventually all waves settle

how we spend our days is, of course how we spend our lives ?

Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will.

you’re not too much, you never too much, you simply carry too much love within you.

Progress is not linear. Progress is not (always) fast. Progress is not (always) visible. None of that means it isn't happening.

Do things from love not for love

Good morning, everyone! Mondays usually fill me with a lot of anxiety about how the week will turn out and whether I have the ability to commit to everything I've planned. But recently, especially after yesterday, I've realized that I've deprioritized getting to know myself. I've recently entered a new stage and status of life, which feels quite scary because of the uncertainty it presents. However, after reading and educating myself, I understood that much of my anxiety was fueled by my inner child feeling inadequate her whole life.

Yesterday, I broke down twice because I realized how much pain and anxiety my inner child has been holding inside for so long. I recognized that I have severely deprioritized her needs and wants, always shoving them aside because that was what I was used to—my feelings going unvalidated and unsupported. But I have the power to rewrite the narrative and commit to change.

After what feels like an eternity, I'm finally putting myself first consciously because I can't bear the thought of my inner child suffering any longer. Imagining doing that to a child breaks me. I want to give myself the world, even though my caregivers didn't give me even a quarter of it. That doesn't mean I'm not worth it—I am worth it, always. You can't be abandoned if you don't abandon yourself.

And somehow, today (even though it's Monday) makes me feel excited rather than riddled with anxiety! Here's to a new chapter of growth that feels like it's breaking me, but is actually growing me!

Growth can also feel like a breaking point ?