I’ve always thought how lovely it is to be bored with someone. Not bored of them but being bored with them. Like I have nothing to say but can I quietly exist with you today? My day is slow, do you want to count the hours with me? We don’t have to be interesting or entertaining all the time to keep each other company. We can just be comfortably completely ourselves. We can just be..

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How can you think that you are weak? Remember the first time that you broke your heart, failed at something, or had a fight with your friend and thought to yourself this is it; "I will never be okay". But time passed and you wrapped yourself with the string of strength as you forgave, accepted new things and learned to love again. Remember the number of times you had to pick up after other people, the moments when you were the one who had to clean up the mess, when you had to make amends and be the bigger person. Remember the first time you felt pain deep, jittery pain in your ribs. The kind of pain that you could physically feel in your heart. Remember when you believed that you can never come through from this pain, when you hugged a corner of your room and turned off all the lights until they resembled the darkness within you. Remember the months that followed -waking up each morning with the weight of your heartache in your chest, and how hard it was to plant a smile on your face when your insides were hurting. You overcame those days. Remember you're the strongest.

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healing is weird. some days you're okay and you're doing fine, other days it still hurts like it's fresh. it's a process with no definitive time frame. you just have to hold on to an aim in your life and keep going. and know that when it's all said and done, you're going to be okay

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I fear to love you too much and lose you and suffer, and I also fear to not love you and miss a love chance and regret it. I live with you an unbalance state since I knew you, my life going perfectly, except my heart which is a mess. I always fear the endings, for I am used to lose anything I love, so please tell me: How can I love you without pain? And how can I not love you with regret?

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"Ever asked yourself why not move on? Because deep down, finding someone new feels unfair to the person who left. It's like searching for echoes of the past in a different voice, a different heart. ??"

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you keep asking why i don't open up, why i keep myself hidden in a box, why i don't interact freely, and i guess maybe the answer to all of those questions is that people scare me.

and no, i do not scare easily. but it's happened to me too many times now. you know the saying "once burned twice shy" well i've been burned more times than i can count.

everytime i think it will be different, yet every time they turn out to be exactly the same. you open up, you tell them your sincerest thoughts, you let them see who you really are, you let all your guards down... and you know what happens next.

it's not cliche, it's not the same sob story everywhere. and it's true when they say that "when two people love each other the one who loves more is always the one who will hurt more." after all they have more to lose.

people scare me because they change their minds so easily. one moment it's "you are all i'll ever need" and the next "i need to focus on xyz". i don't know why you would tell someone you love them and then decide that you're just not sure anymore. what changed?

it's not a game, it's a person, i'm a person. and i know some of you will say that they are human too, that maybe along the way they figured out that you're not what they are looking for, and that it was probably my fault that i gave too much or cared too much and maybe i am responsible for pushing them away.

and maybe you're right, but if that's so then why do you keep asking me to open up, why do you keep asking me to let my walls down, why do you think this time will be different?

because i haven't changed. i'm still the same. i still love the same. and i'm tired of always being the one who gets hurt.

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