I found you early...

Who am I? What am I? Extrovert? Introvert? manipulator? naive?
Who do I want to be?
What does this exhausted soul want?
What does this body need?
Where are my roots from? Who have they been when they were alive?
Should I always be right? Am I?
Whom do I want? Whom should I choose?
Where am I going?

My every day needs my choice. I choose you today and tomorrow, I choose you everyday.

And I am getting old enough to lie to myself. Am I getting harsh on myself? No.
I don't allow myself to stay in a condition that future me would not like to have in HER life.

What if I start choosing ME over YOU?
You will be upset? You will. But The future me needs ME more.
I bet her, She will have everything she is telling me to work for. She is the biggest star I want to follow. She is a muse, she is a poem. She gives me advices yet she doesn't know if I'm gonna go for them.

Motivation? Ambition? What's making me to think about those? HER!
I live for her. I create for her. And may be she cannot choose what she is going to have. But I can. I have choices, that are going to have life-changing effect in HER life.

They were right, I do not know my limits...
People like me, who have this "hunger" inside them that craves for their targets, cannot live with the scenarios of a typical lifestyle. Pain? We will suffer? expectably, we will. But the time flies, and no one has their attention on us. We change, we add, we remove, we leave. We destroy, If it is needed.

I found ME early...

Negadir Meni yaxshi ko'rishadi. Negadir)).
#mood ☺️

,,I think a lot but I don't say much."

,,Please forgive me if I don't talk much at times. It's loud enough in my head.

-Anne Frank

Take risks,talk about your feelings, walk a lot, walk where you like and enjoy your vacation, look fear in the eye and don’t be afraid to step out of your comfort zone. Finally call the person you've been wanting to talk to for a long time and tell him/her how much you love . Don’t let it pull you down at a critical moment, make mistakes, apologize for your mistakes, go through complete hell with your head up, have fun with your inner circle,notice the little things,allow yourself to be a little crazy,don't take everything seriously,don't betray those around you,rejoice in what you have now and what you have,save the moments of your life,because life is so short.

Remember who checks on you when you get quiet. Those are your people)

Nowadays,I have a ,,Why am I like this,, moment at least five times in a day.

but in the end,it doesn't even matter...??