kendall "you built me up to watch me fall" roy

shiv "your flower's filled with vitriol" roy

roman "do you think i deserved it all?" roy

it's not "i'm not a violent dog, i don't know why i bite" it's "if i'm not a violent dog then why do i pretend to be one?"

he wasn't a violent dog but i know why he used to bite

marina said "are you killing for yourself or killing for your saviour?" and altered my brain chemistry

who are you if not everyone you've ever needed? "i'm pretty sure i'm worthless if i can't be of service"

you like someone to save. and you want nothing in return, or so you say. you think you owe it to people. you think you should change the way they perceive things. you think your mere existence will waste their time. how many times have you stopped yourself from leaving only cause you wanted to prove them something? how many times did you stuff your brain with lies, so you'd stay? and tell me dear, did they work?

you can't be their everyone. you can't save another person. why do you always try to do this? you know helping them carry what's breaking them won't save you. you know you can't do anything but watch them drown. trying to teach them how to swim isn't gonna work when you're stuck in the same swamp. thrashing wildly is only gonna pull you down. you can't be their everyone. you can't be everything. saving them isn't the same as saving yourself. you have to let this go.

it's a snake eating its own tail