A Psychopath's love

Years from now, when i give you this same grin, holding you dearly
with a smug of " i told you so"
but with a within chaos of your worth,
knowing how high today's bar is
and how deprecated you will be
that you come back directly to me,
your hero and confidante.
Because i know i will have you or no one will
but i also push you away anytime you come back.
Because you make it too easy.
I need you at a high end when i'm drooling over you.
As i watch your smile in another man's eyes,
and i gouge his eyes out so he sees not your perfection.
So he pushes you away
so far that you fall into my abyss-
and i become your rescuer.
A perfect love story;
A damsel in distress and her prince charming.
And you see me in the light i intended.
And i see in you the same fairytale you believe.
Oh but we won't ride the sunset together.
I want you when others want you.
It makes you glow.
So I'm pushing you away again.
"You're my best friend and i don't want to jeopardize our relationship."
but i do, dear.
you are mine.
and no one else will have you.
but i want you when someone else has you.
so i will torment whoever takes you.
and I'll be there when everyone leaves you.
Because I'm your verisimilitude hero;
Your covert villain.
And you're living in a madman's heart.

#Twisted_love

You’re the queen in the North

And a slave to the south

And yet you act as though you have sailed the entire earth

You only see the east from where you stand

You know not the colour of its soil

Nor the number of mountains and valleys it holds

And yet, you battle knights who’ve fought wars across the universe

You’re but a kid, old, but a kid on these lands

Heed to what the knights tell you

Live not by the stories of the lady man who hasn’t wielded a sword before

I think about you.
About how strong you might be
To wrestle all these guilt black and blue
And still reveal in your eyes, tears of glee.

I think about you.
How you fit in these jigsaw puzzle of life.
Being roughed on the edges along your strife.
But still dressing your bruises and hiding them leaving no clue.

I think about you.
How your sealed putridness oozes unwillingly.
The pit you threw your corpses in suddenly due.
And you still ignore this flaw, enjoying what's left of you ably.

I think about you.
About if I can be you
Fighting and living these life war
Drowning and still somehow swimming to shore.

#Strength

Let poetry be
Let it breathe
Let it be free
Let it not be a sonnet
Let it not be a quartet
Let it not be someone else
Let it be just you
A paper and ink and your soul
Restrict it not with any rules
Let your pieces fly, a free bird

✍Elizabeth

Words said from pain felt,
Pain felt from words said.
Bridges burnt from pain felt from words said.
And we meet everyday in each other's dream to convey bricks and stones.
In our solitude, we meet to water dispersed seed.
And we meet everyday under the sun to fuel a burning bridge.
Till embers is reality.
Till nothing is felt.
And then dreams become reality.
Blossoms from ashes.
But until then, just know that our love amuses me, darling.

#Twisted_love

In my dreams

The only place our love seems to exist
The only realm I hear you say, "I do"
And I kiss you, those lips I always long for

In my dreams

The only place you seem to love me too
The only realm you hug me like you need me
And you whisper into my ears, " I love you"

And there's reality

Where my dreams never will exist
Where my thoughts feels to you a comedy
And the words you tell me "in your dreams"

I have been created from the truth omitted.
I have been galvanized in the lies they knitted.
For my teachers are walking contradictions.
Embodiments of an angelic-devil depiction.
They humble themselves in arrogance.
They impoverish themselves in affluence.
And I have been made with no mouth to tell.
To speak with no voice to yell.
Listen closely to the sages.
Listen to the melodious hypocrisy they sing on stages.
And I see now, how deep my pit echoes.
I see now, how strong my dose grows.
I see now, I am my prison.
But how do I escape a prison made of me?

#imprisoned

They said pain never leaves you if you really feel it

And now I feel their words since your absence leaves me a hit

A sharp pain in my spine through to my head

A pain that seems nucturnal, on leave during the day and visiting me at night

Whenever I close my eyes and it’s your eyes I see through the darkness

And I feel the pain I saw in them in mine

And I wish you could just leave my head and go away with the pain

But then it worsens day after day and I just don’t know why or how

And sometimes I feel it is the only way I’d still have you in mind

And the lookers think it’s all OK but then it is what they see

Didn’t they say time heals, or it never apply to your absence

She loves me
That’s what I feel sometimes

That;

She is scared
And she has fears

And;

How does she feel what I feel?
That she’s the first voice on scene

Asking questions a lover would ask

And so;

I feel she loves me but is scared
I feel I am just imagining things maybe