I carry the sharpest sword but deep down I don’t think it can make you bleed,
For you, I took the pen when there was no more place in my hands.

Your eyes are enough to tame me.

I wish you the happiness I never had,
I wish you the joy of a lifetime.

#2025

*Today I have no words.
They went away to rest.
They worked too hard,
building you up,
breaking you down.

Maybe they need time;
maybe I do too.*

How can I tell the difference between my dreams and my nightmares if I have to fall asleep before I have them all?
It's true that the last one made me smile and I tell myself that I dreamed but I don't forget that it was by smiling that the devil handed the apple to Eve,
All that glitters is not gold.

-Hello, darling!
-Yes, hello.
-This morning,
-What darling?
-We said to each other what we never needed to say to each other.
You said “I love you” to me.
Darling you told me that you loved me and I had no other choice but to answer you “I love you too”.
I want you to tell me what to change,
I want us to go back to that time when a simple look was enough,
This time when we remained taciturn and with a simple look we understood each other in the depths of our minds.
Let us continue to share what we never had to share,
Continue to go beyond the silences, beyond the unsaid, so that each moment is eternal.

It is true that yesterday, I lost faith in you.
It is also true that I no longer saw the strong man who braved challenges and overcame the insurmountable.
But today, I saw the hungry child smile again.
I saw that madman in the middle of the road, smiling, defying the world with a disarming recklessness.
So I decided to give up everything and let things happen naturally.

In the shadow of your absence,
I grasp the joy of what we once shared.
It is on the brink of breaking that I finally understand the depth of our union.
You shaped a man with the soul of another,
Molded from the clay of rare lands.
But neither the clay nor the essence gave his face the smile they loved.
It was the breath you gave him that made him live.
And now, you bury the soul and command the body to survive.
Why?
Why?
Why abandon me?

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I drove like a maniac on the road to reach you.
I braved a long line to rip the sound of its ringtone from your apartment.
And as if that wasn’t enough,
I abandoned my car and ran all night to catch a whiff of your scent this evening.
But you weren’t home that night.
No one answered as I kept ringing the bell.
Baby, forgive me because I had to break down the door to soak up your scent that filled your apartment.

It was stronger than me.

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I struggle to remember the sound of your voice,
Struggle to recall your face when my eyes are closed,
All our memories have turned to dust,
Dust that the wind silently carries away.

The moments we shared dissipate like shadows,
Swept away by time, swallowed by oblivion,
The warmth of your arms feels distant,
A vanished dream in the twilight of our story.

Yet, in every breath of air,
There remains an echo of what once was,
An indelible mark in the corners of my soul,
That time cannot erase, despite its relentless course.

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