i want to sit under the moon ,get high and feel okay for a while yk? maybe u didnt favor me ,maybe i wasnt good enough

april is almost over, and i’m not a human yet.

i don't know when i started spending new years and birthdays w friends & strangers. sometimes guilt did get better of me, and i always end up being sorry for my mom, whoever said blood is thicker than water knew what they were talking about.

my few tragedies feel impersonal, borrowed

i somehow simultaneously trust too much and trust too little. i will share my deepest secrets with someone but then also think they hate me.

there’s a part of me that wants to be completely and utterly alone. then there’s the other part that desperately clings to anyone i care about. i feel rather pathetic either way.

watching a movie again and again just to find answers for my unheard self

if i survive this misogynistic college im gonna go on a long vacation