you're partners, you're supposed to be equals. treat her with dignity. don't make her feel small :(

also: you are TWO years older bro, don't oversell yourself. and regardless: if you're making judgements of your partner's maturity, you're not as wise as you think you are

uni has exposed me to a lot more older-bf-younger-gf relationships and it irks me how some people view age difference as a reason to not take their partner seriously. I don't care how much older you are, their emotional needs are still valid even if it's something you personally wouldn't be triggered by. you CHOSE to date this person. it's your job to support them!!!

no wonder happiness has felt so fleeting

also: I am trying to be ravenous but grateful, or it will never be enough. before I got unhappy with where I am now, how much time did I spend yearning to get there? to get here? I held my breath so much to get this internship but now I'm slightly afraid to admit it because now that I've gotten it it doesn't feel so special. how is that any way to live?

torn between 1) quietly working towards my goals and 2) manifesting things without shame. if I want something I should put in the legwork and that should be all. but if I want something Enough I shouldn't be afraid to scream it from the hills

feeling pretty good about where i am in life at the moment! not necessarily in terms of school or work even, i just feel good sitting here on the bus, thinking about the time ive been spending with my loved ones, thinking about situations ive handled well lately. just want to commemorate this moment of self-love & gratitude - ive been mf killing it

remember: you are told to forgive because it's supposed to set you free

ultimately, I think acknowledging that other people are flawed too will serve us well. but not at the expense of advocating for yourself and what you've experienced. and if that's a hard pill to swallow for you, then try to think of the other people whose lives have been touched by these anti-heros. who's to say she didn't do this to your other friends too? what if you weren't the only girl he put through this? what's protecting your younger siblings from this fate?

inspired by: instantly recognising the niche aesthetic that my friend (similarly overworked pubs IC) was going for in their instagram pubs ?? i'm just that bitch frrr