mildly meta but yknow I used to obsess over whether the vague, shady posts people in my circle posted on social media were about me.... outgrew it (mostly) because short of asking directly, you're never gonna know for sure if something's about you!! and as someone advised me more recently, if someone has a personal grievance with you but doesn't communicate it in an unambiguous way, then it's none of your concern after all

sometimes i'm just figuring it out, and you're neither God nor my father

pondering the significance of the statement "you look tired" today... from friends it's completely innocuous, and even from some strangers it can be nice, but hearing it from people who have a paternalistic interest in my life...... i don't want to deal with you! i have bad days. i don't want to receive a lecture from you every time i have a bad day. not when even in regular circumstances we haven't been able to engage in a way that doesn't make me uncomfortable

you're partners, you're supposed to be equals. treat her with dignity. don't make her feel small :(

also: you are TWO years older bro, don't oversell yourself. and regardless: if you're making judgements of your partner's maturity, you're not as wise as you think you are

uni has exposed me to a lot more older-bf-younger-gf relationships and it irks me how some people view age difference as a reason to not take their partner seriously. I don't care how much older you are, their emotional needs are still valid even if it's something you personally wouldn't be triggered by. you CHOSE to date this person. it's your job to support them!!!

no wonder happiness has felt so fleeting

also: I am trying to be ravenous but grateful, or it will never be enough. before I got unhappy with where I am now, how much time did I spend yearning to get there? to get here? I held my breath so much to get this internship but now I'm slightly afraid to admit it because now that I've gotten it it doesn't feel so special. how is that any way to live?

torn between 1) quietly working towards my goals and 2) manifesting things without shame. if I want something I should put in the legwork and that should be all. but if I want something Enough I shouldn't be afraid to scream it from the hills

feeling pretty good about where i am in life at the moment! not necessarily in terms of school or work even, i just feel good sitting here on the bus, thinking about the time ive been spending with my loved ones, thinking about situations ive handled well lately. just want to commemorate this moment of self-love & gratitude - ive been mf killing it