one day you will stop for a minute and realize that those very thoughts are no longer there. the exhausting war in your head was, it seems, in a past life? you will take a deep breath, praise yourself for the path you have taken and easily move on. but for now, hold on, hold on, grit your teeth harder, you can handle it

если бы у меня было два сердца,

я бы влюбился в тебя дважды

あなたの優しい瞳の深さがどれほど好きか

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when do we realize that we have changed? when does life become strange? we want to be stronger, tougher, more dangerous. but each of these qualities is acquired under certain conditions. they don't appear out of thin air. don’t just arise. To become decisive, strong and reasonable, you need to go through many trials and you need to not only win, but also suffer defeats, otherwise there will be no point. So is it really good to become cruel? prudent? cold? a person becomes callous due to many circumstances, and then cannot become warm and trusting again. if you are dangerous, it means they managed to break you. it means that you were in hundreds of times more pain than those around you. and therefore you learned to be different from them. you have become stronger only because you no longer trust anyone and don’t believe in anyone

я выжгу сердце, полное любви к тебе,
и взращу сердце, которое будет полно к тебе ненависти.