So thanks to all of y’all for being there during 2017 and I wish you the best of luck this upcoming year!!!! :D

I may do awards at some point but I honestly can’t think of any at the moment and I don’t want to accidentally forget someone

Things I’ve learned from journaling for most of my life and also some input on bullet journals:

if you’re anything like me, you’re obsessed with having a perfect journal that looks tumblr worthy and when you’re famous people will use it to document your perfect life, FUCK THAT
1) don’t journal to have an aesthetic journal, journal because it’s an amazing way to keep yourself steady, have a place to vent, express yourself, or whatever you need tbh
2) don’t try to write every day if that doesn’t work for you
I highkey suck at routines and never wrote consistently, which would make me upset and give up on the whole thing. Don’t give up! Write when you want/need to, not when you feel you should
3) be true to yourself at the time, even if your goal is to look back on it later
When I was younger I used to glorify my own writing so when I reread it I would think my life was great, but now I just tell it like it is, and I honestly enjoy seeing what’s happened to me and how I’ve grown
4) on that note, write what matters to you and what you think is important, whatever you wanna remember
5) don’t force something you’re not good at, don’t make it a journal to keep track of your homework if you’re not good at keeping track of homework in a journal ? I’ve forced things on myself way too many times that didn’t work because they’re not me

BULLET JOURNALS:
1) fuck tumblr, have your own aesthetic
When I started my first one, I was super anxious to have a really gorgeous and creative and interesting bullet journal, but I started feeling like I was just using pages to have a nice presentation, none of it was actually me
If you’re creative, use that to your advantage and express yourself, use your own ideas
If you’re not typically into that artsy stuff, don’t force it! Let your journal be a reflection of you, the best journals serve function not aesthetic
2) don’t get overwhelmed by it being a bullet journal
This kinda goes hand in hand with the last one but I always feel anxious to make my bullet journals perfect because they’re BULLET JOURNALS ???? but tbh they’re still just journals, if you mess up or something it’s not a huge deal, just keep going
3) the best way to express yourself is to put things in the bullet journal that you actually care about, I once put in a cute page that was a bunch of books on a shelf that I drew and I put the names of books that I wanna read, but at the time I hated reading and was never gonna do that so realistically it was stupid, don’t waste your time tbh
4) have fun honestly, that’s the best I can say, don’t pressure yourself, just let it flow, don’t spend a ton of money if you don’t need to, let it be your outlet for expression

Fluffy awards 2k17 aka the year i realized my life wont always be more positive than negative

individual awards:
best US friend: esmargotti biscotti ravioli mostaccioli
beaniest, cutest, luckiest bf in the world, and most polyglot-est: maruko
deutschiest, person w/ the best comebacks, and luckiest bf in the world x2: larso
most poetic and aesthetic: ana?
most foodiest + all that other stuff i said earlier: ewenie
all around most talented: jasp(er)
most loving of dogs: nicko
person that made me the most glad I met them: tie between our two canadians youwin and jaspur
overall coolest and the one whose future im most excited for rn: jewels
memeist in langs besides english and best unexpected Looks: raychu
most likely to be a tree in the future: tallbin
best semi-disappearance off of telegram with occasional glimpses: max and cheese (which is still ur name in my phone btw @max_jpg)
catfishiest: le mork
least active and most missed (at least in our mutual chats): emperor jay
actually got me to hate them, a feat in and of itself: j*sh
smartest and most dedicated: bayooooo
most proud of and has the longest snap stories: sxsxsxsxsxsx
most inspiring and role model-esque somehow: siets
shortest irl meeting of online friends (which should be lengthened someday): luok
still the most intimidating and mysterious but smarto: 玄玄
most username and propic changes, constantly prompting me to question who they were: final fantasy forte
kindest and most homely: hoot hoot (its owl)
runner up for being a tree in the future, most teen-like: jordo
most hard-working and most exposed to nsfw right when she woke up: charmemes
most spontaneous random appearances: richarizard

GROUP AWARDS and other miscellaneous, some irl stuff:
otp of the year: larco and my phone x shifting pink-blue spectrum tinge
best group meetup: ewen+charlene+siets, ewen+siets+ray (im still in shock)
absolutely the worst chat ive ever been in: gay chat, currently DURIAN PROHIBITS GP
absolutely the best chat I've ever been in: frites...sike its gay chat (pre-Margot's departure-era)
best chat that im never active in: knowledge group
most cancerous chat outside of gay chat that i ponder the existence of: beginner japanese
deadest chat: the asian chats admin lounge (neerlandais or whatev)
best cook of the year: my mom
best glo-up: literally all my elementary school and middle school and high school classmates
coolest group of ppl i've met and cant wait to get to know more: the asian american student union board and some of the ppl who come and go in the room
best teacher: my japanese teachers, one of whom WENT BACK TO JAPAN cricri
best trip: japan trip
country of the year: japan

person who I know will do their best to change and grow and just have a good life in 2018: me c:

AWARDS (CONTINUED)

parvin: kindness/friendliness award like youve just been so positive, even when you had your own personal things going on. OOH and your voice is very calming when u read stuff in farsi :D

forte: best auntie award ? also biggest canadaweeb award HAHA, u should come to senecaaa

jasper: polyglot goals also like CANTO CBC LGBT BUDDY AWARD LIKE AAAA oNE OF MY PEOPLE !! ty for putting up with my lowkey messy ass

bayo: SPICY AF AWARD LIKE WEW yOUVE BEEN WILDING THIS TERM also spanish/french/korean goals pls gib knowledge

ppl i am acquainted with but i know very little about and would like to get to know better: hosein, marc

errrrr i might've forgotten to mention some ppl, ill edit as the day goes

2017 AWARDS that i lowkey fucked up on but toobAD

taha: purest angel on earth and japanese senpapi award also putting up with me and my puns and not blocking me out of ur life award. also hard working AF AWARD like i know ur life situation is not at its best but you are trying hard to make ends meet and i admire that so much ILY FREND

sx: most determination towards self improvement award bc uve been through a lot this yr but u still powered through and also Most HATEFUL TOWARDS MY JOKES AWARD HMPH

nick: biggest HECKING GOOF award and probably the biggest dog lover award bC HONESTLH WHAT WOULD THE CHAT BE WITHOUT UR DOG GIF SPAM WAVES also slut for etymology/swedish/germanic cocknates award

lars: at the beginning of the yr i thought u were the most annoying bonc on tele but now u are one of my close friends and imJUST Dkkskdk u get the "WILLING TO LAUGH AT MY DUMB JOKES AND THE BEST LAUGHING REACTION VMS" awards and tbh just ur presence is an award in and of itself

marco: THE LOUDEST WAILS AND JAPANESE PORN STAR NOISES AWARD ???? also dedicated polyglot goals award bc i kmow ur gonna do great things and fulfill ur dreams!!!!! alsp this is more for the two of u but FAVE GAY COUPLE AWARD AAAAA

margot: strongest and most dedicated frend award like i have never seen someone go HAM ljke you do when youre really focusing on something. you also made the first part of this yr WILD with all ur atheism

ana: u get a poetic/artsy award bc ive read/seen ur work and holycamoley i FEEL things deep down. i know that youve been through so much and this yr has been a lot of ups and downs but uve powered through like a trooper anyways so u also get a TROOPER AWARD. ALSO LASTLY, fuCKING HAIR AND BODY GOALS AWARD LIKE U M M I DID 10 SWUATS AND MY BACK HURT LIKE ??? GIB BOOT !!!

jules: my fave babby linguist award, i feel like ur gonna be amazIN IN THE FIELD, YOU ARE SO PASSIONATE ABOUT THE THINGS YOU LIKE AND AAAAAAAAAA MY BB also u get the LOTS OF LOVE award bc you have so much lub to share and you care so much about the people around u I, M M,, MM. just keep your head up, focus on your goals, and you will be unstoppable i KNOW IT

luke: FAVE FELLOW LINGUIST AWARD LIKE DUDE YOULL BE AMAZING IM JUS .... I LOOK UP TO U A LOT BC OF UR PASSION FOR IRANIAN LANGS also on a related note u grt the biggest indo-iranian nerd award BUT YEAH keep absorbing all this info and youll be unstoppable in uni wew. O and also fellow punmaster award, i almost forgot

ray: greatest cantomeme shitposter award !!!! also silent hero award bc u go through a lot of stuff on ur own and yet ur still getting through it all, even if it sucks along the way. AND UH CS/CODING AWARD BC DAMN I WISH I KNEW HALF THE SHIT U KNEW

sietse: my fave dutchie and the coolest canto learner handsdown I CANT BELIEVE U PUT UP WITH ME PESTERING U WITH CORRECTIONS BUT UR AWESOME, NEVER CHANGe

albin: i think ive actually known u the longest out of everyone here but u get the loving urself award !!! u might not feel it but ive seen a LOT more confidence and self improvement coming from you the past few yrs ALSO FUCKING MANDO GOALS AWARD ????? LIKE UH GIB KNOWLEDGE PLS

charlene: getting through hk education and discovering ur seckshoeality award 我知你今年特別辛苦，不過捱埋下年就可以讀返一啲你鍾意讀嘅嘢架啦，加油呀 !!!!! 我哋永遠支持你 YA BONC wew that was cheesy

thomas & estelle: FAVE COUPLE AWARD bc honestly i aspire to have a relationship likr this also FAITH IN MY GERMAN COMPETENCY AWARD HAHAHA, u guys are rly cool tho and i wanna get to know u guys better !!

morkus: the kinkiest but also nerdiest gay manz i know ??? we gotta meet up if i cum berlin pv !!! also catfish award goes to u bc i barely ever interacted with joshs catfishes tbh, but considering i had a pv with anne and aslan I WAS SHOOK

hiantong: SINITIC GOD AWARD and just GENERAL KNOWLEDGE KWEEN??? i look up to u bc ur a senpai to me !!! i hope you find happiness and success in 2018 my frend

AWARDS

best catfish - josh (sorry morkus)
second best catfish - mitra and her 127 fakes
least likely to be a catfish, most inspiring for managing TLs - margot
best dark souls player - ehsan
best bartender - farbod
best music taste - shahin, anaïs
best mom - anaïs
best dad - anton
best furry - avaro
best dog photo stockpile - nick
most patient, kind and helpful - parvin
most british accent - hossein, jules
most kosher - a tie between ofir and larisa
most bizarre memes - raymonf
plej malmalmalmalbona - marco
darudo-est bom - cameron
chillest - kartik (literally never even seen this guy agitated)
#1 saddest anime betrayal - anne
#1 most badass anime fight - taha vs his purple-tinted camera
purest, most good - ewen and taha i couldn't pick favorites
coolest people i don't talk to as much - maite, ryagami, ana, sietse, jay, maxens

sorry to anyone i missed, this is just what i have off the top of my head

The Esmargot 2017 Awards
Best bee wife: Anabel
Best daneaboo: jules as always
The only furry I’ll ever not hate: Morkus
My favorite franch tichar: Estellééé
Future superior to my german professor: thomas
Tele otp: thomstelle
My favorite french learning partner: Hosein (literally no one I’d rather have as a “classmate”)
My soulmate in typoese: ewen
My best SON: ray
Favorite esperantist: Marco
Person who’s been on tele since the start but i only just started to adore and I’m so stupid for waiting this long bc i literally love her: jennie (honorable mention to victor)
Funniest dialogues: jennie and cam
tudo tudo BOM: cam
Umass 2023: luke
Best overall: anton (literally who tf else)
best drunk caller and rabbit owner: imanol
Transcends his human form to have a bajillion gifs/great world politics discourse: bayo
Most underrated hands down: cason
Best Dutch teacher who literally helps with all my dumbass questions and tolerates my bike jokes and overusage of the word lekker: sietse (serieus dankjewel voor al je hulp schatje)
Still la meilleure banane: adonaicito ilysm
Still most innocent: taha
Im literally so sorry i broke our 270+ streak pls forgive me: carlos
went MIA just before these awards came around sucks to be him: ofir bby
Back from the dead: victor
I miss u: jay and max
Best new icelandic addition: alaina
Biggest linguistics nerd: Anaïs
Favorite french merdeposte: melon, stache, et mariage
My amazing Russian English lang exchange partner ilysm: larisa
Funniest sarcasm and hatred of life: lars
An amazing friend that went to see pistache for me while he was in Belgium I’m forever grateful: marco
Most enthusiastic and i wish we talked more: forte bby
Takes no bullshit telegram dad: bert (shoutout to his students that i called once)
Even bigger weeb than last year: ehsan
still hasn’t mailed me a crocodile: nick
Person i wanna talk to more: jasper
Still drunk russian: antoshka
i hope ur dick gets blown off in the army so u wont ever pass on your genes: josh
least realistic josh catfish: oksana
Most realistic josh catfish: io
Jennie josh catfish: hanna
Double-dipped name for two separate josh catfishes: maria
Biggest cuck: tiana
Rip to the people we lost: noah, alexis, max, jay, jag, ethan

Most fulfilling TL of the year: nederlands
Artist of the year: lil kleine
Katya Zujev: Katya Zujev for becoming even MORE of an angel HOW does she DO IT ????
Umass: meningitis
Groupchat of the year: BFE (honorable mention: kazoku’s reincarnation)
Daddy majid: pinkross.ir
Fled from: gay chat lmao rip
My awards last year were definitely way funnier but oh well
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Anyway thank you all for helping me to grow and understand other beliefs and worldviews and if i hadn’t met you guys i definitely wouldn’t be who i am today, and i can’t imagine my life without y’all now
Happy new year bitches

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The Down Under NY Awards 2017
(aka the What the fuck, it's not NYD yet! Awards)

best australian - me
best new zealander - me
best oceanian - me
best nick - me

now onto the real awards

best austrian/australian multinational - marco

master of TL swapping - jules
master of abstinence - ewen
master of memeing in german - luke
master of teaching me swedish - albin
master of being a fake hongkonger - sietse
master of pretending they're NOT a frog - estelle
master of eating a burger with cutlery without making the whole thing FALL APART - thomas
master of dropping biscuits at train stations - lars
master of living in south germany and denying it - marco
master of making me laugh too much right before nyd - margot
master of visualising depression - charlene
master of making jules happy - jensen
master of not knowing what a fucking biscuit is - jensen
master of somehow not being a uni student yet??? - jasper
master of random-ass canto messages - ray
master of making weird clicking sounds with his mouth - michael
master of knowing that boost is in fact the best brand ever - shixuan
master of timing his sleep pattern so he goes to sleep right as i wake up and vice versa - taha
master of knowing too many languages - morkus