Unsaid Words

*In shadows of silence, where whispers fade,
Linger the words I never conveyed.
That night by the fire, your head on my chest,
I held back "I love you," and thought it for the best.

When you asked if I’d stay, your eyes full of plea,
I choked on my answer, just nodded discreetly.
Had I whispered my sins on that rainy eve,
Perhaps we'd have closure, a reason to leave.

Now, these words haunt my restless nights,
Filling me with regret, guilt, and the fights
Of emotions unspoken, a storm in my mind,
A painful reminder of what’s left behind.

The love we once shared, now just a ghost,
Yet these words inside, hurt me the most.
I no longer need you, I’ve found my own way,
But the shadows of silence still darken my day.

In grave pain, I linger, with each silent tear,
The echoes of what I held back are near.
Regret fills my heart, it eats me alive,
In this quiet torment, I struggle to thrive.

Yet somehow, I'm better, in a place of my own,
No longer needing the love that was never shown.
But these words, they linger and sting,
A bitter reminder of what silence can bring.*

- @idioticAsHell ?

Echoes of Deceit

*I penned a hundred pages in the dead of night,
Some poems, some tales, all born of our fight.
I can’t tell if it’s love or seething disdain,
Contradictions run deep, they’re my lifelong bane.

You left a void, a chasm, this gnawing ache,
Every word you spoke now feels like a fake.
Cigarettes burn slow, their smoke curls cold,
I mingle with souls who deserve stories untold.

I thought you were worthy, pure in your guise,
But now I see through your web of lies.
You're better off as you are, a phantom of my past,
An echo in the void, fading fast.*

- @idioticAsHell ?

Beyond Betrayal

*When perfidious shadows were unveiled,
And your dulcet lies came undone,
I found my path in a world anew,
Beneath a more relentless sun.

No longer your wistful poet's muse,
But a heart tempered with steel,
I heed the clarion call of reason,
Teaching my wounds to heal.

You played your hand with aces high,
Yet I wielded the spades of verity.
Diamonds may dazzle, hearts deceive,
But clubs expose the insincerity.

The cadence of your murmured lies,
Now a distant, fading refrain,
Your once-bright smile, a fleeting sunray,
In the tempest where I remain.

No longer am I the mere shadow,
Now casting radiance of my own.
Your so-called perfection was but a facade,
A throne I've rightfully dethroned.

You were the ocean, boundless,
But I command the tide's own course,
Rising and falling at my will,
Not at your deceitful force.

Thus, I taunt with head held high,
For in love's intricate game, you've lost.
I stand unbroken, liberated,
Acquainted now with the cost.

Love is not a predestined heartbeat,
But a choice, luminous and clear.
And my path, free from your deceptions,
Is paved with truths held dear.*

- @idioticAsHell ?

it was always me versus the world
until i found it's me versus me.

*In the wake of shattered dreams, I stand,
Heart heavy with the weight of betrayal's hand.
Once woven together, our paths diverged,
Leaving behind a heartbroken dirge.

In the silence of night, echoes resound,
Memories of love, now tightly bound.
Betrayal's sting cuts deep like a knife,
Leaving scars upon the fabric of life.

Promises whispered, now broken and frayed,
As trust, once cherished, begins to fade.
In the wreckage of what once was,
I search for solace amidst the pause.

Yet amidst the pain, a glimmer of light,
A reminder that wounds can heal with time's flight.
For in the depths of despair, I find my strength,
A phoenix rising from the ashes, at length.

So let the tears fall, let the heartache subside,
For in the ruins of love, I'll reclaim my pride.
Though scars may linger, I'll emerge anew,
Ready to face the world, brave and true.*

- @idioticAsHell ?

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