It's the very first time I'm still awake after university started 🛂
Seriously like
I'm trying to sleep for 4 hours but I'm unable to sleep
Whenever I close my eyes it' s something scary I will see but will not get scared...
At this moment I want sleep paralysis ...... I want to feel those unknown black shadows after I sleep like I'm with evil spirits .
Nvm
I don't know when I will get sleep but the thing I know is I Will only sleep for 1 or 2 hours today .

Confession : Mmm ig I'm hurt But I'm not accepting it...hurt because not only my best friend actually none of my online best friend is replying to me for 2 or 3 days....We have our phone and it will be ridiculous to say that you were so busy that you can't even answer the phone call or texts for days ...Nvm no one is on blame it's just me choosing wrong people ig
If someone hugs me right now I will cry like a river...

It must be ridiculous for some people to hear my shits like this while they are struggling in other things too.. mmm I can sense it , we all humans have their own problems at different levels and I hope you guys have someone around you to hug you or comfort you...
If you don't have no problem we are in the same boat let's Cry and Lough together someday.

The decision is 10 years old and many people around me warned me not to follow it but I did it and a few months ago too but blind in friendship I followed it but now I'm regretting everything like
will it be the worst decision ever? Because at some time I feel like maybe it's just my hard time with her but she is proving me wrong every single day.
It's not like few days friendship that' can be broken but its 10 years it's Hard and even more hard when she only had you whom she can call best friend but what should I do like I'm feeling suffocating with her because she is trying her best to hurt me and I too have feelings and also she is hitting my weekest points and it hurts like hell
Yeah I love myself as hell but what to do in situations like this when she considers your friendship as Vmin but never takes any moral from that pure friendship.
I seriously want to give up on this friendship.
Today she said "I will see you some other day" just because I didn't go with her in the ground to play because I was having pain in my thighs muscles and also she threw my book like tf and those revange full eyes of her just because I didn't do something she wanted.
Calling me deaf from behind just because I have very little hearing problem.
Seriously When someone else calls you that, you can answer back anything but when your own best friend says things like this...

Leaving this for strangers because explaining this to close ones is totally shit , Because everyone around me is the same as her seriously total piece of shit.

Guys I'm giving you peace of advice instead of protecting relationships or friendship , protect your future because you will have enough time to get emotional with family after getting successful believe me if not family then come to me we will both get emotional on how to spend money together but firstly save yourself , your future 🤌🏻.

May positivity bless you bye bye ~
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Lipophrenia - A feeling of sadness without any known reason

ㅤㅤHappy New Year 💌**

12:30am finished studying Physiology

Aha but before that I watched the music video of "Winter Ahead" and started to cry lmfao mm but seriously that made me cry like how he made those sculptures + alive + then who was the real one + he was all alone lonely . And Why I cried well I have my own reasons lmfao, leave it.
Everyone has different perspectives, artists too ig I didn't watch any interview related to music video or anything
So,Many things are there , Just watch it and try to make your own perspective story.

ㅤ ㅤㅤ ❄️❄️❄️ 🤩.